i feel i wouldnt mind if i wasnt human. how much have we destroyed?  people have created so much to distract from the fact that they are fucking useless. skyscrapers and bridges and highways; schools and offices and apartments...there is nothing in it but our drive towards progress but the idea of progress is a lie we have created terrible things and done terrible things and we can't seem to stop.

im drunk i feel perfect i never feel perfect but i do now.
i lost weight
found out painful things today
its fucking funny

i cant manage anymore
im fucking up in almost every way i can think of
im losing my grip i really am

things look a little different tonight

im sorry