sometimes i want to scream "i am mine i am enough i am whole" but the fact is im not i am reminded of this by all the things i hold close that do not belong to me at all.  i cling to things i clutch them desperately running holding them to my chest running and fighting everything around me but it seems most often that it is not enough.  i do not belong to myself i belong to everyone and everything else.  i feel sub human i feel inferior.  i am inferior.